I have struggled with my weight for over 14 years. I was super skinny in high school and then went to college and gained way more than the freshman 15. I was huge! But in my mind I was still small, I couldn't bring myself to admit that I wasn't the same size. I guess it really hit me when I saw my graduation pictures from college. I was shocked and ashamed. I was embarrassed.
During my first full time job after college I had a colleague tell me that we were joining Weight Watchers that day. I had walked into the office and she announced it and I never looked back. Thanks to her I lost all my weight and I was in a size 6. A SIZE 6!!!! That didn't last long. I left that job and my weight slowly crept back. Then when I became pregnant with my first son, I gained 90 lbs. Yes, you read that right, 90 lbs! I worked really hard to lose that weight. I lost 60 of it and then became pregnant again with my second son. I only gained approximately 30 lbs with him. That 30 was easy to lose. But I was still up, way up. I became very frustrated and fell into a slump...a long slump. My weight creeped up and up. I looked at the scale one day and I couldn't believe how much I weighed. I was shocked and ashamed. I was embarrassed....again!
Fast forward to May, 2010. I had a normal check up and found out that I was extremely obese. I immediately became depressed. I cried and cried. I remember sitting in the Target parking lot talking to one of my friends and she basically told me to have my moment and cry and then move on. And I have...slowly.
Fast forward to October 2010. My husband joined me on my weight loss journey. We have started eating healthier, watching our portions, drinking lots of water and cutting out sugar. Let me start by saying my husband has done a fantastic job. He has passed me on how many pounds we have lost. He passed me quickly. As of today I have lost 50 lbs. He is down much more than that. Last Friday I had another doctor appointment. Basically a checkup and to see how my progress was going. I weighed in and began crying. Yes, I have lost a lot and yes, it is great. But it's not good enough for me. So I feel like I am starting all over again. Back at the beginning. I want to lose another 50 lbs before my friends wedding. This is my motivation.
During my first full time job after college I had a colleague tell me that we were joining Weight Watchers that day. I had walked into the office and she announced it and I never looked back. Thanks to her I lost all my weight and I was in a size 6. A SIZE 6!!!! That didn't last long. I left that job and my weight slowly crept back. Then when I became pregnant with my first son, I gained 90 lbs. Yes, you read that right, 90 lbs! I worked really hard to lose that weight. I lost 60 of it and then became pregnant again with my second son. I only gained approximately 30 lbs with him. That 30 was easy to lose. But I was still up, way up. I became very frustrated and fell into a slump...a long slump. My weight creeped up and up. I looked at the scale one day and I couldn't believe how much I weighed. I was shocked and ashamed. I was embarrassed....again!
Fast forward to May, 2010. I had a normal check up and found out that I was extremely obese. I immediately became depressed. I cried and cried. I remember sitting in the Target parking lot talking to one of my friends and she basically told me to have my moment and cry and then move on. And I have...slowly.
Fast forward to October 2010. My husband joined me on my weight loss journey. We have started eating healthier, watching our portions, drinking lots of water and cutting out sugar. Let me start by saying my husband has done a fantastic job. He has passed me on how many pounds we have lost. He passed me quickly. As of today I have lost 50 lbs. He is down much more than that. Last Friday I had another doctor appointment. Basically a checkup and to see how my progress was going. I weighed in and began crying. Yes, I have lost a lot and yes, it is great. But it's not good enough for me. So I feel like I am starting all over again. Back at the beginning. I want to lose another 50 lbs before my friends wedding. This is my motivation.
I checked back for an update... and nothing. you're going to have to become a better blogger :)
ReplyDeletekeep going... every day you get just a little bit closer to your goal and before you know it, you'll be there. struggle is never easy but you are so much better for it and it's made you who are today.
....and who you are today is one of the best friends someone could ask for. keep going!